I know there's too many of my random photos.
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Well, i'm sorry for not blogging. Wasn't in a good mood last night.
Hmmm.. Yes, supposedly should be fine.
But last night i was still kinda uneasy.
At last, Darling Wendy just be frank and told me everything she knew.
Marcus and Yang have been hiding somethings that idk all these while.
Yes, its all lies.
But their intention was to prevent me from getting hurt.
And they got no idea how they should tell me too.
However, i still have to face the facts and know everything one day.
I didn't expect that the hatred he had for me till this extent.
I burst out of my tears, it just can't stop flowing down my cheeks.
And so, to get it know better. Darling suggested to look for Marcus and Yang today.
Hopefully that they can wake me up.
Cause seriously, i need somebody to slap me or pull me out from those illusion. -.-
Worse to worse was, again there's another misunderstood today.
We actually thought there's only Marcus and Yang meeting us.
Who knows, we saw him from far.
Is like, omg.. SERIOUSLY not that i still can't get over or something.
Is that, how can i go over when Marcus and Yang are gonna tell me those truth?
I'm just afraid that we'll be awkward and uneasy.
Cause it isn't very nice for him to listen all those once more.
Called Yang and heard him saying, "都讲做朋友了".
Of course lah!
But then since that's the decision, of course i don't want you to hear anything again ma!
In the end you mistook me for wanting to sort things clear and talk to you again.
My goodness.. I really never have that intention okay!
Had a long chat with Marcus.
He somewhat counselling me.
Hmmm.. Everything he said keep appearing in my mind consistently.
He's right..
But.. Maybe i need more time before i can face it happily.
It should be difficult for me to hang out with you guys all the times alr.
As what Marcus said, though i didn't did anything throughout this whole holiday, but the expression that i showed each time i hanged out with them was way too obvious and cold.
There's no way to expect us to get better in this condition?
Everyone could tell that i'm unhappy.
Marcus said, don't have to feel guilty. Don't even care about whether did he really misunderstood me again this time round.
Don't bother even when i feel remorseful. Don't apologise anymore.
Just forget everything from now on and let go completely.
So that there will be a chance for us to get better after a period.
And although there might be still this little hope, but its pretty impossible to return to a relationship that's further more than friendship.
I've caused him to have those kind of mindset whereas, each time i wanna look for them at admiralty, he'll eventually think that i wanna sort things out.
But HELLOOOOOO~ I really never wanted it lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know i know.. Its useless!
TIME TIME TIME~~
Darling~ Thanks for staying by my side all these while.
I would have become even more terrible and horrible without having you by my side.
I definitely understood that you never wanna hide it from me.
Marcus, Yang and you were in a difficult position.
I'll try my best to overcome.
You know, i will always suddenly wanna do some foolish and silly stuff.
I'm kind random all the times.
Pls stop me from becoming worse. D:
I need darling badly when it comes to all those time.
MUACKS!
Realised i don't have a single day without mentioning the name, "Wj wj wj"..
Even i myself find it irritating. -.-
I'll stop.. -.-
Well.. Today is actually the first day of sch reopening.
Yet i skipped again.
Cause.. I find it ashamed to go to sch facing him after knowing all those facts last night.
Those facts and realities were difficult for me to accept.
If i were to know it, i might not written such a long letter to him.
The moment Marcus passed those to him.
He actually never wanna take again and intend to throw it away.
But Marcus told him to accept it.
He asked, "Will you accept it if you were me?"
And Marcus replied that he would.
They said he's someone who will persist whatever decision he made till the end.
So there's nothing much i can do.
He just wanna be friend with me and nothing more further than that.
I wonder did he even take a look at what i gave.
Even Marcus have read everything.
I'm still sorry no matter what.
I know it very clearly.. Other than my family members, you were the only person whoever tolerate my fking attitude and temper.
The hatred you have for me, i wonder when will it end.
Sigh..
I'll try not to appear too often from your vision.
After all.. Again its the same answer. Time time time..
Luckily i gotten an MC today.
Or else i wonder will my second warning letter arrive soon.
For past few months, i don't have a single week without a single absent day. Zzz..
Sound pathetic..
Its gonna be a new day for me starting from tmr.
First lesson will alr be having Phase test.
SYLVIA SEETOO! JIAYOU! FIGHTING!
Oh yah, just to let you guys know that.
I don't think i'll be updating my blog in anytime soon alr.
One day.. When i really get over of everything.
I think that'll be the time you wanna read my blog again.
There's nothing much memorable for me to blog anyways.
So yah.. Goodbye readers!
Lastly, THANK YOU SO MUCH TO WENDY DARLING, MARCUS AND YANG!
As promised, i said that i will upload those overdue photos.
These are really memorable photos to me.
God damn it!
I was thinking that all these while, i must have made my readers really bored and tired of reading at my blog.
